Unconcious Rantings

Because I am so bored at work and because I have not slept in weeks, I have had WAY too much time to think - about everything. They say that women get "hormonal" when they are pregnant. I am not convinced it's not hormones. It's actually because we are TIRED and the hours of lying awake at night leaves us with lots of time to re-live "real" happenings or create imaginary scenarios in our head. You know the kind - when you actually wake up frustrated, anxious or mad at someone - not because they have done anything, but because you created a scene in your head all night?

Poor Peter wakes up to find that I already have a list of things that need to get done today, this week, this season and this lifetime. I am also convinced that if these things don't get done the big blue sky will actually fall. By the time he rolls out of bed I have solved half of the world's problems and don't understand why he doesn't read my mind and catch up! The nerve.

I do recognize the inconvenience of planning someone else's life while they are sleeping. It might actually be a definition of craziness. Thank God we have girlfriends for this sort of thing. I can call and scream into a phone and then by the end of the conversation I realize I need to SLOW DOWN and remember that my plans for solving the economic crisis, our unborn child's middle school choices, Thanksgiving 2010, and our birthing plan should be discussed with a fully conscious husband BEFORE I accuse him (in my head) of not understanding me.

Thank goodness for grace, forgiveness and a sense of humor (for yourself and others).

I am off to nap on the floor of the Shop now. We have had ZERO customers and after trying to light the wood burning stove and smoking the place out, I think the carbon monoxide will be a nice sleep inducer.